Your Wonderful Two’s – A letter.

Written by Elena @The Art of Making a Baby. Posted in BABY, Fun as a Toddler Mom, Letters to Lexi, Life as a Toddler, Monthly Updates, PHOTO, TODDLER

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Baby girl!

I stopped my monthly letters because you’re growing so fast that it would impossible to keep track of everything, and you’re increasingly (I would never think it’d be possible) taking more of my time playing and having fun that it’s not something I can keep up with. However, there is also so much cuteness that I want to make sure I never forget.

So I will write these to you occasionally when inspiration strikes and your sleep schedule allows :) This letter encompasses the best age so far: 22-25 months (pics are from 22 months, all outfits are from Lourdes). I wanted to include a video, but that is A LOT OF work, so I will have to create it later and put it into a different post.

Letters to Lexi: 11 Months Old

Written by Elena @The Art of Making a Baby. Posted in BABY, Letters to Lexi, Monthly Updates, PHOTO

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I don’t know where to start. Again.

Again. You’ve blown our minds.

Yes, we are first time parents so our minds are pretty easy to blow. But you’re still a rockstar, regardless of anything.

At 10 months 6 days exactly you took your first independent steps. The next day you ran from mommy to grandma, and back. Then to daddy and back. By midmonth you were taking 10 steps on your own. They were wobbly and were more like running than walking- you were in the process of falling and catching yourself over and over again, which is what walking is, essentially. You spent this last month doing nothing but walking holding onto one of our hands. You don’t like holding two hands. Oh no, you push the second hand away and walk with pride holding onto only 1 finger. Crawling is long abandoned.

Letters to Lexi: Happy 10 months, Baby Girl!

Written by Elena @The Art of Making a Baby. Posted in BABY, Letters to Lexi, Monthly Updates, New Mom Experience, PHOTO

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It’s only month 10 and I am already starting to run out of words for you.

There is so much that you do, so much that changes on daily basis, and so much love that grows with you.

This whole “having you as a daughter” gig keeps getting better. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t wish I could bottle up every single ounce of your cuteness for posterity.

Sometimes, I just stare at you trying desperately to commit every roll, every hair, every finger and toe, every single expression and sound you make, to memory, because I am so afraid that soon I won’t remember what you were like. A part of the reason for why I take so many photos of you ( and photos in general) is because, while I have excellent short term memory, my long term memory has always sucked. I don’t want to not remember every single thing about 10 months old you in 10 years. I want to have it right there on video and photo. So you and I are stuck with tons and tons of memories keeped in a digital file.

Letters to Lexi: 9 Months

Written by Elena @The Art of Making a Baby. Posted in BABY, Letters to Lexi, Monthly Updates, PHOTO

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Dear Lexi,

This is the age! The age when I considered other people’s kids BIG. I look at you, though, and you’re still so small, so fragile, so vulnerable. There’s yet so much for you to learn , so much to master.

But you are growing at warp speed. Mastering one thing after another. One morning you would wake up and just have this new skill. Since the earlier months I have noticed one remarkable thing. I can SEE cognitive jumps in your development. Like, one day you would just be MUCH smarter than the day before. A HUGE JUMP!

Letters to Lexi: 7 months old!

Written by Elena @The Art of Making a Baby. Posted in BABY, Letters to Lexi, Monthly Updates, PHOTO

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Dear baby girl,

You are 7 months old. The number blows my mind. I remember reading other people’s blogs and thinking how big their babies were at 7 months. And here you are, exactly 7 months old, and yet you’re still so little and at the same time so grown. You’ve gone such a long way. I could never imagine myself as a mom to a 7 months old and yet in a blink of an eye, you are 7 WHOLE MONTHS OLD!

Letters to Lexi: 6 Months

Written by Elena @The Art of Making a Baby. Posted in BABY, Letters to Lexi

Dear, girl!

You are half a year old. 6 months. It’s a big deal! It’s a really big deal! So much has changed. YOU have changed.

This month brought on so many changes. These changes almost sneaked upon us. Without warning. Just BOOM – you’re different.



The biggest thing I’ve noticed is you LOOK older. You look like a little girl. It’s quite adorable. You make cute little girl faces, and wave your arms around in frustration or happiness. Those two can come one after another.

You’re the most amazing kid on the planet. Like really, you bring us joy every day. And you are becoming easier and easier to handle every day.  You laugh so much, you’re such a happy girl. Six months rocks. Really- the best age so far!

You’re becoming more and more beautiful. Either that or I am getting more and more biased because I love you more with each day. Your eyes are so big and blue and so captivating. Your lips have that perfect pout and you have the most rounded head I’ve ever seen.

This month has had a lot of firsts for you:

You had your first road trip to Orlando, your first wedding reception, your first 4th of July party and many others I’ll mention below.

You did amazing at the late night 4th of July party. You were too busy looking around to realize that it was past your bedtime and wouldn’t go to sleep even when I tried putting you down in the  quiet and dim nursery.

You’re into both mommy and daddy more and more each day. My favorite part is when daddy goes to get you when you wake up from your nap and brings you out to me while I am working on my laptop, and you JUST LIGHT up and start kicking and bouncing in his arms so hard that he can barely hold you.

You had your first stay at the hotel and you absolutely loved it. You loved seeing all the places and people. You slept just as well as you do at home and you never complained. Except on your 4 hour ride home, which was a little bit rough.

You do so good in the car now. As long as you have a toy to entertain you and switch them around periodically or  I talk to you or sing to you, or play peekaboo, you’re happy as a clam. You will actually fall asleep in the car seat pretty consistently if you’re very tired with some help from mommy or daddy (singing usually helps).

You are wary of strangers, yet with enough time and smiles, you smile back and bounce in my arms. You’re super social while staying cautious of anyone you don’t know.

You met your auntie Boom Boom and you loved her. You took to her very quickly and allowed yourself being carried around and played with.

You cut your first 2 teeth. For some reason, it is so special to me. Your first tooth came through after a few days of fussier than normal behavior, though I cannot reliably connect it with teething. At first I saw the gum getting whiter and then there was a blackish dot on top of it. I was sure it was a tooth, but your daddy didn’t believe me. And sure enough the next day there was a white cap. And then the same thing happened with the second bottom tooth. They are still pretty small but your smiles are even more adorable now.

You are a much more proficient sitter now. You’re strong and solid. You LOVE playing with your hands while sitting up. Your coordination is so good now. You grab a toy with one or two hands while sitting down and then you start shaking it side to side. Eventually you accidentally let go and your toy goes flying a few feet in the air. You easily reach for things all around you when sitting. You love playing with your Finn&Emma gym while sitting up.

You don’t know how to get into a sitting position, but you do know how to move from sitting to crawling/tummy down.

You aren’t a crawler yet. I was sure that after getting on your knees last month, you’d be crawling by now, but you somehow shifted your focus to other things and put crawling aside until just a few days ago when you went back to trying to get on your knees and move.

I find it really cool how you keep switching from thing to thing working on different skills at different times. It’s a little bit like me. I usually get interested in so many things at once I have to split my attention between them.

And the big one is you rolled over from your back to your tummy. And then to your tummy again. And that was that. I knew you had been waiting for something to start rolling consistently and that something was  apparently going from back to tummy. As soon as you knew how to put yourself into your favorite position, the other way around wasn’t an issue. You still prefer scooting on your tummy to rolling around, but you’ll occasionally roll when you need to get a toy or for the fun of it. You became really good at it, too. After the very first roll from back to tummy, you kind of just continued doing it all without hesitation whenever you needed to.

You’re quite the social butterfly nowadays, you love smiling at people after you’re done studying them and determining whether they are good or not. We had painters getting our house finished last week and oh my god, you just couldn’t stop smiling and talking to them.

Speaking of talking, that picked up too (I can tell you worked hard on many things this month). You try to talk to us and strangers as much as you can, but it’s mostly raspberries, aghoos, and these forced screams and types of sounds that make me think you want to go potty. Only recently did I realize that  it is you attempting to talk to all of us by screeching and you’re trying to make sounds the only way you can right now. In the last few days you have expanded your vocabulary to include more ba-ba-bas and na-na-nas and ma-ma-mas and all kinds of different sounds that really sound like speech. So much fun!

You still sleep with us, even though I try to start you off in the crib each night, but you won’t have any of that silliness. You have to feel mama’s breath on you or touch her, or the best thing in the world: nurse to sleep. Oh, you love that and I love it just as much. You didn’t used to be a baby that nursed to sleep, but it’s something that I sort of started with the bedtime routine. I might regret later, but for now I treasure the times when you fall asleep at the breast.

I really enjoy lying down with you, though I don’t get to do it often, because your short naps are the only time I can write for the blog. But the time that I spend rocking you is one of my favorite times during the day. I love smelling your sour milk cheeks and feeling your warm breath and having your soft squishy body cuddle into my arms. Seriously, I will miss it so much when it’s gone.

The last two weeks you’ve been playing on your own for good stretches of time (10-15 minutes), but we are still always there whenever you need us once you’re done playing. I’ve been putting a pillow behind you so that if you fall you don’t hit your head.

Your sleep is still the same. Every 2 hours seems to be your thing at night and every 40 minutes during the day.

You developed this shy smile that is just beyond adorable! It’s this tentative little thing that soon evolves into a big grin and a little nose scrunching. I love your nose -scrunching. And snorting- oh your snorting is beyond adorable ( probably to me only). I really need to get that on video (put it on my today’s to-do list)

You’re IN LOVE with water! Such a water baby, it makes me so happy! You squeal with delight whenever you get splashed, you love being rained on or going under sprinklers, having fun bath time with daddy or when mommy fills up a big girl tub and lets you play there with her.

We recently bought your a non-vinyl baby pool and you adore splashing in it. You’ll laugh every time you get water in your eyes and face.

You also had your first swim in the pool. Again it was a great hit. I’d hold you up and you’d kick your legs and swim like a big girl. We are now going to the pool every other day or so and it’s by far your favorite activity

You’re also back in your cloth diapers which makes mama so happy. I am excited to be buying more cute colors and prints and ditching the disposables.

Your first boat trip happened this month, as well. You did so good. It was pretty hot, even though we got started early and kept you in the shade. You fussed occasionally when it got hot or when we had to put an lifevest on you, but as soon as the boat would pick up speed and you’d feel the wind on your face, you’d start bouncing and smiling. We love watching you experience new things.

Here’s a big one: YOU STARTED BLW! {baby  led weaning}. I say YOU because you truly commanded this one. I’ve been keeping you away from solids even though you’ve been able to sit unsupported and have been reaching for our food and had the pincer grasp down since 4.5 months. I wanted to wait till 6 months. You had other plans and you let me know. One day you grabbed a cherry out of my hands and started gumming on it. So I bit into it for you to see what you’d do. Well, as soon as you tasted the juice your eyes got all big and you started sucking it out and gumming more. The next day as you were sitting in my lap and I was eating a peach, you reached out and took the peach with one hand (I didn’t stop you this time), you instantly brought it to your mouth like you positively knew what you were doing and started EATING it. I took that as a clue that you were ready and eager to start solids. Since then we’ve been ocassionally giving you whatever it is we were eating as long it was appropriate. You’ve had peaches, strawberries, zuccinnis, avocados, potatoes, mushrooms, plum,  navy beans, red pepper, banana and maybe a few more I am forgetting.

You love it, you truly love exploring food, playing with it, chewing it, learning how to manipulate it in your mouth and swallow it. And we enjoy watching you learn. I am looking forward to you joining us at all our meals.

Your personality is sparkling! You’re expressive, fun, you smile so widely when you see people you like/love, you get so intently focused on things one second and another you’ll just lying there pondering the problems of the world.

On a serious note, recently I’ve had this weird train of thoughts ( you know how sometimes a situation pops into your head and you think about what you’d do in that case).. Well, with the Colorado shooting, I’ve been thinking a lot about what would I do in situations where our lives are in danger. And without a millisecond delay, there’s no question in my mind that I would give my life for a 1% chance of saving yours.


For readers

In this post:

Hair flower: Hopscotch Boutique

Wooden Gym: Finn&Emma

Non-PVC pool: The Pop Up Pool

Excersaucer: Evenflo Jam Session

 

Upcoming Posts:

Written and scheduled to post: First Swing Ride, Nursery Updates, Morning walks

In the process: 4th of July, Boat Trip, Orlando Trip, Time Management, Parenting Duties Split, Baby Safety

Reviews/Giveaways: Maxi Cosi car seat, Mutsy stroller, Tiny Love, and more

Letters to Lexi: 5 Months

Written by Elena @The Art of Making a Baby. Posted in BABY, Letters to Lexi, Monthly Updates, PHOTO, VIDEO


Dear baby girl!

This is getting serious! You are one amazing curious wonderful determined hilarious fun bundle of energy! I don’t know for how long I’ll continue repeating that it just doesn’t seem like you’ve been here for mere 5 months and yet I can’t believe how much you have grown in such little time.

You’re getting more and more fun to be around. Everything makes you laugh, you’re interested in everything, you want to touch everything, you want to move, move, move. I just love you so much more with each and every day. You are a true joy to us!

This month it has been picture overload here because you’re just the cutest little thing and you’ve been doing so many new things. I have not been able to capture even 1/10th of your charm and sweetness and character. The way you look at me when I carry you or nuzzle me and give me open mouth kisses when we lie next to each other is just not something I will ever be able to properly describe or capture on camera. It will be something special for me to remember forever.

Here’s what is new this month:

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You all of a sudden started reaching out and touching things when we carry you. We can’t go past a blank wall, let alone an item, without you reaching for it, or running your hands down it. Our bedtime routine has evolved from “saying good-night” to windows,pictures, lamp and monitor to “touching good-night”. Your favorite are our lamp and the monitor. When the routine starts, you are barely paying attention to windows and armoire, your eyes are on the lamp. Once we get to it, you grab the hanging switch and turn it on, then look at me in amazement, and then pull on it to turn it off and look at me again. You used to love touching the toy we call “no-fall-downer” (nevalyazhka), because you can’t tip it over, it just keep popping up. But you’ve moved onto the lamp. You love the monitor because you can attempt to get it in your mouth, though, of course, we don’t let you. (see video)

You have noticed our kitties. You stare at them in wonder like they are the coolest things you’ve ever seen and I can see your mouth curve into a smile and you yelp “Ah!” Of course, you always try to touch them whenever they are close enough AND put them in your mouth which is pretty much impossible. Initially you’d tentatively copy how we pet the cats, you’d gently stroke their fur, but now you just go and grab them with your hands full of fur. It’s so cute! Putting that hand in your mouth before we managed to wash your hands- isn’t so cute! The cats are strangely ok with you. They let you pet pull their fur.

You ADORE playing peekaboo. You laugh until you start hiccuping. When I hide and say “Where’s mommy?” you quiet down waiting for me pop up with “Here I am!” (see video)

I can’t tell whether you hate not being around us or you have started the whole “separation anxiety” but there are times (most of the time) when, if we leave your side, you crane your neck and follow us with your gaze and as soon as you can’t see us, you start crying. There are other times, when you’re so consumed with a toy, that you don’t notice it, until you do and you start crying. I hate the idea that until you have object permanence if you don’t see us, it’s like we fell off the face of the earth.

A couple of nights you have been waking up with your eyes wide open, ready to play and wouldn’t go to sleep. You’d fuss and fuss and fuss, until you start crying. Sometimes even the boob won’t put you to sleep. So daddy gets up and rocks you until you’re asleep again, unless you won’t go to sleep and then he wakes me up and I try to rock you, too. You usually fall asleep, but often it takes us 1.5 hours and neither one of us gets to sleep. Then other nights you wake up every 2 hours to be comforted by the boob or just my hand on you. I realize that you will not be sleeping well for many months. You’re not a sleeper and right now there’s just too much going on with you to sleep. I’ll wait, I’m in no hurry.

Your favorite activity is still scooting with leg support. If we don’t give you leg support, you somehow squirm yourself around the mat to face whatever it is you want.

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Your hand coordination spiked up. You can now hold small board books and flip pages (but mostly shove them into your mouth). You can hold and pick up everything in your reach: calculator, bottles, toys. It’s so much fun carrying you around because you reach out and try to touch everything in sight and you’re just so interested. I love curiosity- that’s the cornerstone of learning.

You have now figured out the concept of purposefully calling for attention. Daddy was folding laundry while you were sitting in a swing one day (the hope was that you’d get rocked to sleep). Then suddenly you make a “fuss” sound. When daddy looked up to see what’s wrong, he saw you staring at him with a huge smile on your face. He was so excited to tell me about your new milestone.

You rolled again (tummy to back). There was no problem or hesitation in you. You just looked up at me, and rolled, as if to say “Silly mommy! You forgot that I had already rolled twice at 2.5 months, I can do it, I just don’t care to.” So that’s that. You like being on your tummy, so there has never been the need to roll more than a few times. And obviously, you’re much more focused on crawling, that rolling seems boring to you. Point taken. Moving on.

UPDATE: I keep having to add to this post, as days before turning 5 months, you keep reaching milestone after milestone. As we were reading the cloth Peekaboo book, for the first time ever, instead of try to chew on it, you actually kept reaching out and opening the covers to see what’s under them. I don’t know if you really got the concept of hiding or it’s just a coincidence but it’s pretty cool either way.

And here’s a big one: you can sit unassisted. You can’t get into a sitting position on your own yet, obviously. But if you are sat up, you’ll sit for as long as you want or until you decide that you’d like to move now, at which point you’ll roll into a crawling position. You really dislike being stationary. Sitting is a new thing to you, so you’ll do it for a few minutes or more if there are toys involved. But otherwise, you just want to go, go, go. You still tip backwards once in a while, though, especially when mommy is behind you and she starts talking, you HAVE to see what she’s saying, so you look up and bam! I always catch you, of course.

You are slowly working on rolling from back to tummy. Obviously, you’re more interested in that type of roll since it would put you on your tummy and into crawling position. You can’t do it yet, though. You get as far as your side and you haven’t figured out that you can go further. But you have plenty of time, you’re only 5 months, little girl. I do love watching you figure things out, though. All I ever want for you is curiosity and determination. And then success in everything will follow.

A new thing you’ve been doing is vigorously shaking objects in your hands. Whether it’s a rattle or a cloth book, you’ll grab it and just go crazy shaking it. I really want to get it on video, but so far I haven’t been able to. Sometimes, you’ll shake your arms when there’s nothing in your hands and it looks like you’re beating your chest like a gorilla. It’s kind of funny! :)

At almost 5 months

Your first crawling motion. You’ve been trying to crawl, but you haven’t had enough strength to pull yourself up. That is until 1 week ago, on Father’s Day, when you started to pick your butt of the floor just a little bit when your scoot with leg support in an effort to get on your knees. It’s so much fun to watch you try to do it. AND I managed to catch on video your VERY FIRST ATTEMPT at REAL CRAWLING! You pulled yourself up all by yourself and moved forward! YAY! It’s funny because I was so excited, that I would be walking around all pumped and then forget why I was so excited, until I’d remember “Oh, I caught Lexi’s first “crawl” on video!” {the joys of first time moms!}

Now after that first crawl attempt, you’re much more efficient at moving around. If I leave you on the mat to go grab a cup of tea or throw in a load of laundry, I always come back to see you a foot or two further than where you were facing a completely opposite direction. I think with this kind of determination a few more weeks and you will start moving on your own, which means we have to begin baby proofing. Hey, at least you’re super adorable in your knee pads.

UPDATE: Things seem to change daily now. You have been getting up on your knees pretty well all day today (6/28/12) and trying to move. You still need leg support to move or you get frustrated,but you have grasped the main concept for crawling. You flail your arms and legs and when that gets you nowhere you try to pick your belly and butt off the floor by getting on your knees. Keep up the good work!

You’re losing your hair, girl! We cannot wait to see what it’s going to come back as. I am sad, though, because I LOVE your hair! And I also cannot even picture you as a blondie!

 

It’s very apparent to me that you’re growing and changing in more ways that we can see. We finally installed a new convertible car seat ( to hell with that infant one that was too hot and uncomfortable) and you love it. You spread your legs like a baroness and enjoy the ride. We went out to get some food and walk around with daddy the other day and you didn’t mind riding in the car one bit. You had so much fun being out and 4 hours after your previous nap, you blissfully fell asleep in your new car seat. That has NEVER happened before. We’re so excited to be able to take you places now and now that you are comfortable enough that you can fall asleep in your car seat.

You now look for fallen objects. This is HUGE, girl! You drop your toy and look down to see where it went! You actually understand the world. I love all the thinking going on in your brain.

You have developed a sense of humor too. Besides, laughing at pretty much anything, from a goofy face to a sound , you now crack up at specific things like the first time you put your toe into your mouth sent you into a laugh, or when one of our kitties sniff you, or when mommy carries you around in a funny way. I love that!

And just a few days before turning 5 months, you’ve developed a pincer grasp. You know what that means? That you are officially ready for solid foods, since that was the last thing we’ve been waiting on. We won’t do solids till your 6 months birthday anyways and we’ll be trying Baby Led Weaning method, but it’s still fun to reach that milestone. (which means I need to hurry up and research high chairs, safe dishes and read the book on BLW)

You’re not really crazy about playing with toys (you do love to chew on them, though), you’d rather socialize with mommy and daddy, but lately since you started being able to move on your own a bit, you’ve been giving me 2-5 minutes at a time to do things while you try to crawl and squirm around the mat.

You also started sticking out your tongue and keeping it out. So for the past few days, all your photos look like this, you silly girl!

It’s clear how much you love your mommy and daddy and how much you enjoy our company. We have inside jokes already and it’s so much fun that you get them. When I put you on your tummy on top of my chest and you start crawling forward, you always end up with your slobbery mouth on my nose or eye or cheek and I start screaming saying “Ne kushai moi nosik!!! Ne kushai moi nosik!” (Don’t eat my little nose!) and you laugh and purposefully put your mouth on my nose and try to eat it. Same thing happens with the eye once you’ve moved past the nose!

You also have the most precious relationship with your daddy and he’s just SMITTEN by you!

You have no signs of teeth. Zero. And I am happy to keep it that way.

Your favorite toys currently are this Apple Park Organic Bunny teether & rattle (since you love it so much, I just ordered a Bunny Lovey from the same company) and Wonderworld Twisty teether and there are so many awesome things that we’ve discovered you love that I cannot wait to write about. But it’s definitely trial and error with you when it comes to baby products.

Soon we’ll be going to see grandma on daddy’s side in Orlando, so that will be a lot of fun and I am a bit scared since it is a 3 hour drive and we’ve never really driven that far with you. I hope you’ll do good.

I’m not sure how I feel about all these milestones. You’re going through them way too fast, I already miss my little girl. You are really something special. I am starting to see how you’re so much more than we ever imagined you’d be, so much better. And do you know what I love the MOST about you? That you have such a a STRONG personality! You know what you want, you demand it, you go for it, you’re curious and interested in everything. You have determination and drive, along with a fun spirit, even at this early age. These will be your best gifts when you’re older, trust me!

It was almost impossible to get a good picture of you this time, because you wanted to wiggle your way into a crawling position. I ended up with 2 decent pictures: one way – too serious, another – cross eyed. I chose crossed eyed because you can just see your personality shine through it. So when you read through this in many many years, remember- you didn’t give me much choice! LOL

I’ve put together a 4th month video illustrating a lot of what you do these days and I’ll try to do one each month until you stop changing so fast. I’ll post it in a few days, if you nap well. :)

For my readers:

While I will be writing about all the things we’re discovered that have proven to be useful or that Alexis loves, since I get asked a lot about things you see in the photos, here’s a list of everything I can think of:

Tiny Love Gym
Tiny Love Supermat ( the best freaking thing EVER)
Tiny Love Sunny Stroll Arch
Infantino High chair cover
MiYum Cat in the Hat toy
Brown Hairband from Etsy
Maxi Cosi Pria convertible carseat.
KneeBees red knee pads
Crawlings yellow knee pads
Fisher Price Excersaucer
Lamaze Cloth Book
Mutsy 4Rider Stroller
{if I missed something, feel free to shoot me an email}

Letters to Lexi: 4 Months

Written by Elena @The Art of Making a Baby. Posted in BABY, Letters to Lexi, Monthly Updates

Dear Baby Girl!

I’ve been searching for ways to talk to you and tell you the story of how you grew up and nothing I come up with seems significant or important enough. While this blog is a mix of my journey to parenthood, our life events and discoveries, I still feel there’s something missing. Something that is coming from deep within my heart, that makes it so easy to write and express my feelings about being your mommy. And what I realized is that what’s missing is me talking directly to you, so that some day when I am not even there, you could read these words and know your mommy loved you and did everything to ensure the best life for you.

So I’d like to start Letters to Lexi, as a way of talking to you through time. Maybe you will be able to go back to these when you have children of your own, when you’d be able to relate better.

4 months…

I feel like an eternity has passed since you came along. An eternity of knowing you, being with you, kissing your chubby cheeks, enjoying your smiles and struggling to put you to sleep. So much has changed in these 4 months. You’re a different baby, you’re a PERSON.

You light up every morning when you see mommy. You’ve developed a clear preference for me, something I tried to avoid by including your dad as much as possible, but secretly enjoy and am happy for. I know that in just a few short months, you’ll become a daddy’s girl, so I savor these moments of being the favorite.

From the moment you wake up till the second you go to sleep, I crave to be around you. My most miserable days are the days when I have to be working and your daddy is with you. I walk over to you every few minutes, I listen for your cries and squeals, I long to hug you and rock you to sleep. I hate my work days and I wish that all I could do is just spend time with you.We both still can’t believe we have a daughter, that YOU are our daughter. Honestly, I feel it’s such a HUGE privilege to be your parents. You’re an extraordinary little girl and you show that daily. The processes and thoughts that go on in your brain are fascinating to me. I see you looking everywhere, trying to make sense of the world, searching out our faces for emotions, waiting for a smile so that you could squeal in delight. It takes but a second for us to meet your eyes when you light up, as if you’ve been waiting for us to look at you for centuries.

You laugh so much! It’s the sweetest sound in the whole world to hear that rolling laugh and boy, have you been rewarding us with it. All I have to do is tickle your cheek with my nose, or pull on your legs and you burst into laughing. I thought you laughed a lot before for your age but this is beyond anything I could have imagined.

You have the most birlliant smile I have ever seen in my life. The way your eyes light up and your face becomes so girly and sweet, it just melts my heart. You become a completely different person for those seconds when your mouth is open in a wide grin and your eyes get those little wrinkles on the sides.

You’re really too much fun. You’ve developed this high pitched scream, that is different from your earlier squeals. This one is so full of energy and so full of YOU that it can’t be ignored. It’s an “O-M-G-I-A-M-S-O-E-X-C-I-T-E-D!” kind of scream. And when you’re unhappy, you scream too, just in a more demanding way. I think you like how it sounds and feels and I love you experiencing it. I promise you that I will not tell you to stop, that I will not set unnecessary limits on your happiness and self-expression because of social expectations and norms. Not now, not later. You can count on that, girl. You can scream and squeal and be as happy as you want to be and you’ll never hear from me “Sh! We’re in public!” (well unless we’re are in a place that requires silence).

You’ve been lifting your head up (looking up) for a few months now and that makes you look like such a grown girl. When you sit in my lap and you hear me talk or just get bored, you lift your head and look up at me with a sweet smile and I just really really really love that.

You love when daddy puts your on his arm tummy down and “flies” you all over the house. There’s just a hint of a smile, but mostly a serious face and you scan your surroundings from a different perspective.

You’ve developed so many preferences. You’ve always been very particular about things you don’t like, but now I see specific things that you LOVE.

You get sooo excited about going for a walk in your stroller. The second I put you in your Mutsy, you start laughing and your eyes sparkle. And when we pass trees, oh, how you love them- your legs start kicking and your eyes get soo big. You get incredibly quiet and content when I sit you up face forward in my Nordic Carrier and you will not make a sound as long as you’re facing out.

You’re even more passionate about things you don’t like. If I flip you to face me in a carrier- oh watch out! You are not going to have ANY of that.

You get so frustrated when you can’t get a teether in your mouth and you belt out a yell of anger and your hands shake from frustration.

You dislike nap time so passionately. You now know our routine and as soon as I walk up to the last item we say “Good night!” to, you KNOW and you start fussing. (update: for the last week, you’ve gone down for a nap almost without a peep, such a great progress)

Tummy time has become a favorite activity of yours. Again there’s lots of squeals and smiles and looking around. It gives you a different perspective, doesn’t it? You don’t seem to be interested in rolling over, you get all the way on the palms of your hands and look around, then balance yourself on one of them. And man, do you army crawl like a pro. Just give you some leg support and you’re off at a speed of light (sometimes you drag your arm underneath you and that’s no fun). If you find no support for your feet, you just scoot around the mat. You can turn 180 degrees in a matter of seconds.

Anything that touches your hand goes in your mouth. I have been trying to replace some questionable hanging toys with organic ones, so that I could let you suck on them with no fear and you love those even more. You love Sophie and your Lifefactory silicone teether and you just got some new organic toys from Apple Park and judging by how you were eyeing them as I was taking them out of the box, we’re going to have a new favorite.

Bathtime is probably your most favorite activity of the day, except for nursing. You wiggle and smile and scream and bounce in our arms the second we undress you. It’s so much fun to see the anticipation of your favorite activities in you.

We’ve also developed a few games that you love to play. Any time you grab a piece of cloth in your hand (be it a blanket or your sleeve as I am dressing you), and I try to tug it away from you, you laugh and squeal with delight and tug back trying to shove it back into your mouth. Sometimes a simple act of a blanket dancing on your belly sends you into a rolling laugh.

You LOVE nakey time and I really need to give you more opportunities to wiggle like worm. You start your “nakey” dance when I lay you down on the bed naked, you thrust your hips and move around and dance and smile and squeal.


You’ve also suddenly and unexpectedly grown out of swaddling. What a surprise for us, as we recently found just the perfect swaddle for you. But you’re a big girl now and you want your arms free and over your head. I get it!

You also found your thumb just a week ago, but don;t know to suck on it for comfort yet. You just put it in your mouth and lick it or hold it there.

Nursing has become an entertainment for you. You lie there in a craddle hold with your one arm behind me, scratching the chair by my back and the other arm in a fencing position floating in the air. You’re as distracted and distractable as can be. You get such a kick out of pulling off my boob right as it starts letting down and you get hosed with several sprays of milk while your mommy scatters to grab something, anything, to cover it up so that both of us wouldn’t get soaked. I always fail and we end up needing a change of clothes. Yeah, lotsa fun, isn’t it?

You’ve discovered that you can see a lot better if you arch your back and look up and now pretty much any activity means you’re arched all the way out, my gymnast. I can’t feed you without your unlatching and arching your back to see if it’s daddy who passed by. Oh and if someone utters a word, let alone carries a conversation when you’re eating, you drop everything and arch and turn to see who’s talking. You’re so cute!

You’ve also had this weird episode twice now. Whenever daddy or grandma leave to run errands and are gone most of the day, you act like you don’t recognize them when they come back and your lip comes out and you have this sad face and you look to me for reassurance. That hurts daddy a lot, I am sure. It takes you a few hours to “remember” who they are and smile back at them.

You absolutely adore bouncing on my knee or my head or being thrown (or more like lifted, because we’re afraid to actually throw you) into the air. If you’re upset with something, one of these activities are sure to put at least the tiniest smile on your face.

You’ve gotten this new habit of arching your back at everything. I carry you around like a little baby and you arch your back and look at everything upside down and you just love it. I think you’re loving the new control you have over your body so anytime I hold you, you look like a curved C.

You’re on the move, girl! In just a couple of days you’ve been crawling (army crawling, not hands and knees) non stop. If you are on your tummy, you no longer want to passively lie there looking around. You grunt and complain trying to move forward until one of us gives you something to kick off of and you’re gone. You crawl and grunt and speak so loudly but you love it. You get from one end of your tiny love mat to the other in 3 pushes. We need to get you a Supermat.

You still don’t get why you need to roll somewhere if you can belly crawl there. You’re kind of skipping it completely which not good, baby. You need to learn all the skills. Hope you figure out rolling at least after you start crawling. lol

You’re also all over me. You love it when I lie down and lay you tummy down on me because you’ll wiggle and roll (yes you’ll roll on me) and crawl and arch and are just so much fun!

{I can’t help it but laugh at this picture}

You like:

  • Itsy Bitsy Spider (especially when the rain comes down)
  • Tummy time and crawling (i.e. squirming)
  • Circus McGurcus 1,2,3
  • Gumming things, especially our knuckles
  • Bun Massages
  • Baths
  • Getting strapped into a stroller
  • Facing out in a carrier
  • Trees
  • Watching mommy and daddy eat
  • Mommy
  • Touching mommy’s ear while sleeping
  • Laughing with mommy
  • Looking around (that’s an understatement)
  • saying Ah-goo
  • being thrown in the air
  • when I hug you really close
  • standing up from a lying position as opposed to sitting up
  • your bouncy entertainment activity center (or whatever it is called)
  • nakey time
  • Looking up while arching your back

You don’t like:

  • Sleeping
  • Getting dressed
  • Getting your arms massaged
  • Scary bearded strange men
  • Facing in in a carrier
  • Fast let down

I love you so much little girl, you’re our world!

{Wearing in this post from top to bottom:

Picture 3: ModSwad
Picture 4: Polarn O Pyret
Picture 5: Sage Creek Organics
Picture 6: Boob Design
Picture 7: Green Baby 
Picture 8: Estella-NYC }